Tonight, right now, I hope it ends
My goal, on my will, it depends
I open my skin, let truth rush in
And with simple slit, it begins
I hate you for this, but do you know
By reading this, you are not the foe
The true fault, I will keep away
For she, I keep, from this dark day
Shall she find me, I hope not
I love her much, thus my body rot
She will be safe from the guilt
In this safe place for her I have built
The blood will remain unexplained
Her clear conscience I will have gained
As the red soaks my lonely floor
Because for her I wish so much more
In future years she will find glee
From all this red I humbly set free
A better half will find her heart
My end will finally justify my start
My end will disappear in shadows of time
And reveal happiness through act of crime
No one will hear my last cry
But for her, I let myself die
Is a martyr still one if forever unknown
If tonight I leave my arms not sown
If tonight the ends, justified are
From the means I create, so far
I care not, for I know deep down
My own suffering, in happiness will drown
I do this for right, never for wrong
I do this for her, for what she will long
As I step towards the bathroom tub
My openings together, which I rub
I somehow cannot turn the faucet’s hand
On the floor of failure is where I land
She will have to deal for a week or two
Until I find a way to do what I must do
