Trying to forget about you
Is exactly the same
As trying to forget the sound
Of my own name
Forgetting the feelings, thoughts
We once shared
Grasping holding on tight to
Any feelings spared
I know what I must do now
I’ve done this before
Grieve miss pick-up move on
Like listing chores
But how do you explain to
A live beating heart
How to accept the process
Of tearing apart
How do you make your hands
Just stop shaking
Do I just live with this slow death
Do I start faking
Like a constant flu or cold
A lingering disease
Memories of her beauty, grace
Linger with ease
I see other women and girls
New distractions
Feeble attempts to cover up
Cardiac contractions
I’ll go on she will do the same
Life goes on
Start new homes new loves
This one’s gone
This love will subtly disperse
Like an old scar
Or a building in the rear window
Of a fast car
I want out of this vehicle now
And run back to
That building fading away behind
Run back to you
Or maybe I’ll reopen the scar
Before it fades
Tear into my skin with finger tips
Personal blades
Try as I might pain that I feel
Nothing works
Remedies, distractions, new things
Heartbreak lurks
I follow the directions do as I’m told
It must get better
Follow advice pretend I hadn’t even
Ever met her
If I could drown this feeling
Put it to death
I would hold it’s head under until it
Takes last breath
I would scream as loud as I could
Roar, my rage
I hate this I hate her I hate you
Hate this page
But I will not ever forget you
All the same
Or the way you would softly call
Out my name
